Monday,7 january 2013
3.00 a.m.
Assalamualaikum,
well we met again.. at this point actually malam ke subuh ke aku pun tak tahu tengah confiuse totally over confiuse right now. So i guess i should write something to make me feel better. :)
well we met again.. at this point actually malam ke subuh ke aku pun tak tahu tengah confiuse totally over confiuse right now. So i guess i should write something to make me feel better. :)
Firstly, aku bukan nak cakap yang aku ni ramai peminat puihhh! tapi semalam kira hari ahad lah hidayah my friends suruh online facebook yes! facebook yang dah lama tak active tu,biasa lah it's common for a girl to have their time gossiping right? then suddenly this one guy give me beautiful greeting which is ofcourse "Assalamualaikum" aku pun membalasnya dengan ikhlas. Macam pernah nampak rupa2nya this guy sekolah Klang Utama my old school before i moved to SKI patutlah macam kenal. Chating with him borak2 tah apa kebenda tah then this is what made me confiuse, he just confess to me! He said that he can't even leave me,He never felt like this before and He felt in love with me... i was like WTH baru je kenal tengah hari tadi lah wehhhh -.- kau ingat aku nak percaya cakap kau tu.
Dalam masa yang sama, i was think about my Mr Ash! How if Ash know about this? and aku rasa macam aku ni telah mempermainkan ramai lelaki. i didn't want anyone to think negatively about me saying that i'm a playgirl,cruel toward love orr ANYTHING! aku pun bagi tahu this guy ni yang aku dah suka orang lain, memang masa tu terasa serba salah tahap gaban lah kan. Nasib baik he's a nice guy, ayat yang paling terharu dia kata "If someone i love happy then i will be happy too" pehhhh terasa macam dah buat satu jenayah kau tahu -.- teringat:
"THINK ABOUT YOUR OWN SELF NOT OTHERS MEREKA TAK SEMESTINYA BUAT BAIK DENGAN KITA" -my mom
Everytime i did what my mom told me macam ayat ni, every single time tu lah i felt guilty.. macam sekarang ni lah aku dah rasa bersalah dah ape yang aku buat dekat that guy yang confess tadi walaupun i was trying to change. What my mom told me, with this attitude i have like feeling guilty so easy even though you were make the right choice seriously kau akan senang kena pijak -.- that's what my mom told me and i want to prove it that i can change. TAPI TAK BOLEH :'( nanti mesti jadi benda yang sama macam sekarang ni.
Right now i just hope that guy didn't hate me,i hope he didn't spread stupid rumours about me, and i hope he will find better girl other than me.
P/S: Older posts to know who are Mr.Ash is.
Love Nash,